Sunday, April 5, 2015

In the memory of mine
I have a section that never die
Some bits are blurred
Some bits are clear
But all of them do make me feel
As if I did experience a dream.

I must admit it was My dream 
which wasn't estimated as true deal.
It's still unclear what do I feel 
about this possessive fear...
Should I except you leave me here 
or should I beg you to be near?

I know my dear that hesitation thrill 
is dirty game that never should be real. 
But through that mental way i still
Believe in memory of mine and dream…

Time pass and things as well
But should we leave imagination hell
That takes us up to hill 
or trough from mountain back to here.

This poesy is pure and clear
It helps my heart to breath and feel.
My soul should not be closed
As there is darkness at the close.

I want to shine and give that shine
To open heart and leave it bright
But downside of that is thrill

Emotional, possessive and surreal.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Confession, or the way we communicate and receive love.


This is so funny, because I have no idea who am I talking to. I am not that active over here, so even if I earn some reader I loose him/her immediately, as there are no constant posts. It's like once every year… But every time I post something here, is the greatest pleasure! It is sharing and grabbing and sorting out thoughts and feelings. I love writing, even though I am not the best at grammar. But this is communication and a lovely experience of sharing….

Communication to people is important, but what is more important to you? Communication or acceptance?
"Thanks" to Instagram "likes" became a way of communication, as well as receiving love and attention, and if your picture doesn't have enough "likes" you are no longer loved. Well you may lough but there are really people who truly getting upset about it. And they put thousand of hashtags to get followers or likes from other unknown people. Isn't it funny? or sad…. Even me getting a bit effected by this disease, I must admit! Obviously not extreme, but I am addicted.

-"Hello Everyone! My name is Liza and I am addicted to Instagram and receiving likes..."
-"Hi Liza!"

The issue of acceptance is so so important for me right now. As I have started the business that doesn't work that well. And this fiasco I take so personally… Every little negative comment makes me aggressive and irritated. In reality people talk bullshit and make subjective assumptions and think they do a big difference… In one of my posts I was talking about silence. Sometimes it is the best! Even my greatest friends try to sort out my troubles by giving me irrelevant solutions which way they show that they don't believe in me and what I do. (This is advice, cheer people up and inspire, and don't give any advises unless you have been asked to do so, they find the way how to solve the problem themselves.)

-"Hello Everyone! My name is Liza and I have failed my first business, and don't really like when people give me advices and irrelevant assumptions..."
-"Hi Liza!"

And the last bit of communication that I have though about for some period of time… Does everything what people say, express (and post on social media, picture, write, videotape, email, whats app, sing….) is true?
Quite a few times I knew a person who I though is truly hating me, later for some reason he or she was telling me that I was almost their inspiration. And visa versa, people who gave me promises of love and respect were actually just disturbing the silence.
Even now, I don't really know if somebody reads this post and love it or they think that I am one of those crazy bloggers rubbishing the Web. And if the negativity is there, maybe it is not because my blog is bad, but because they have a bad bad day at work….

-"Hello Everyone! My name is Liza and I don't believe to everything people say to me. Sadly I think they lie and misinform…."
-"Hi Liza!"

I am leading to the conclusion that our main part of life - communication, is so complicated. But in stead of spreading love and opening heart, we suppress those feelings and pretend to be cool and indifferent.
Here where I have started the business, people are not communicative. They are judgmental (as all customers) and very distant. They pretend even to themselves. But the reason behind is most probably not being open for new things, not being able to express emotions and positive feelings.


-"Hello Everyone! My name is Liza and I suggest everyone to spread love (especially in comments bellow) and open your heart to receive love… Be communicative and let people know that their affords are actually appreciated. However appreciate the good will you receive back from others"
-"Hi Liza!"

Dear reader, if you read this, please find the time to let me know about it which ever way you want.
If not, it was a please to open my heart in a labyrinth of internet communication.

With love!

Monday, October 6, 2014


Dear readers and friends!

Here is my new project!!
I am so excited and simultaneously scared to reach fiasco eventually...
All my energy is dedicated to this little start up.

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If you are in Moscow, please feel free to visit me in the store and take a look at collections we have!! All brands are amazing! Exclusively presented and have amazing design and quality!

The store is located in Moscow, Prospekt Vernadskogo metro station.
Call me before coming I will explain you how to get there!!
+7 (926) 795-48-09

Thursday, September 25, 2014

To be proud of your self!

Two last days and actually last weeks were very tough. Work, responsibilities, difficult relationships, heavy aggressive people and lots of negativity around. As always it all came at the same moment without any capable support from friends and family (to be honest I try to avoid overcomplicate my friends' life since their life sometimes not easier than mine). My head was so stiff, that I couldn't even relax and thing of something else apart from problems. So I have decided to observe some positivity in google.
The last but not the least bit of the article I found:
5. Appreciate the little things.
“Nobody can be uncheered with a balloon.”
Daily happiness is to a large part about appreciating the small things.
If you just allow yourself to be happy when accomplishing a big goal or when you have some great luck then you are making life harder than it needs to be.
Instead, focus on appreciating things that you may take for granted.
Take 2 minutes and find things in your life you can appreciate right now. If you want some ideas, here are a few of the simple things that I like to appreciate:
  • My food.
  • The weather.
  • My health.
  • Friends and family.
  • This website and the opportunity to write about what I want.
  • You, the reader.
  • Myself and the fine things about me.
The funny thing is that if you just start appreciating something you can very quickly start jumping around with your attention and appreciate just about anything around you.
You may start with the food you are eating right now. Then move your attention to the phone and appreciate that you can contact anyone – and be contacted by anyone – you’d like.
You might then move your attention outside, through the window and see the wonderful sunshine, then kids having fun with a football and then the tree by the road turning into wonderful autumn colors. And so on.
It might not sound like much. But this simple 2 minute exercise can help you to uncover a lot of the happiness that is already in your daily life.

And here we come...
My food - yes happy.
Weather - well not really but what can we do.
Friends and family - yes, nice time to time, mostly great but not always next to you as we all travel so much.
Myself and the fine things about me.... - amm hmm. I wouldn't say that I have problems with self esteem. But I can't say that I can be proud of myself for being helpful or supportive when its needed. I can not be 100% proud of me being honest, respectful enough and well-wishing. Usually I have (maybe you too) those moments wham I get happy and positive, give away so much love and that I get annoyed with doing too much and stop it all, expecting the same love back which not always come back. What I experienced that others are just not doing anything and not expecting anything good back... It could be an illusion but there are not many kind and welcoming people out there on the streets...
Therefore I have taken a solution and accepted a daily challenge: to do at least one good thing to someone... it can be a stranger or a best friend. Don't consider it to be vainly but I just want to start being proud of myself for not think solely of my own benefit but spread positivity everyday! It may sound very silly and desperate but there must be the way out of egoism and self-concentration. So many societies live hating each other for being hated by each other. Here is my remedy, come join me for a positive mind thinking challenge! :)